Today my street is closed. No not a party, a street paving project.
I don't usually get out during the day since I work from home (well ok, when I used to eat fast food I'd go out mid day all the time to savor the flavor...but alas...no more....now I savor the flavor at home with my home grown tomatoes, apples, and pears).
Back to working at home. I don't think much about going out when I'm working...I think about working. But today, since my freedom has been stolen for one day, all I can think of is that I need to go out and get "this," or I need to go do "that." Interesting how these things work.
Why is it that I have all the room in the world, an acre of land, and when the street closes, I want to curl up on the sofa, drink tea, and watch TV? Interesting how my mind works. Fortunately, I have a little black dog that will have none of this nesting crap. It is bad enough she has to put up with working. For her, it is all about adventure, exercise, and play.
I also am feeling a bit more energetic these past few days. I'm doing something different and it is working. My whole fitness for agility hasn't progressed in the past month or so. Not due to inactivity, but due to portion control and choices. I have made a commitment to myself to improve daily and despite alot of big talk, my actions have not been demonstrating a desire for improvement. Stagnant yes, improvement no.
Last week I made a decision to take a little of personal choice away and put a little bit of structure back in. I went and purchased 2 weeks of Jenny Craig meals. I know that eating on a food plan does NOT teach me to eat correctly. But I needed something and I decided that posting my food list on my fridge and having to write everything and have a list of food that I could eat that day would give me the boost that I need and put control back into my life.
So far, so good. I still have to make the decision every waking moment of the day to stick to it (husband brought ice cream into the house!). But at this point in my first week of this structure (6th day) I am achieving what I've wanted for the past 3 weeks but didn't have the fortitude to accomplish. At the end of this two weeks, I may go get another week, or I may just plan my week on my own.
But for now, I'm happy with the results and extremely proud for having faith in myself and believing that I can be a fit, healthy person. Even if I can't leave my house.